If you read yesterday’s post as I stated everything I gave away except for the land and the house. One person told me, “You will never know how much you have blessed us.”
My thought, “It is God Who has blessed you, not I.” As I focused it was amazing to me, how God brought people to me, some I do not even know, who needed things.
Anyways, one thing after the other walked out the door. Forty-years of work and preparing for retirement, was walking out the door!
Then it dawned on me, “That is how many years the Israelite’s spent wandering the desert.” Going round and round that mountain, searching for the Promise Land.
“Is that what I had been doing since I had been 23 years old?/Preparing for a future whose direction changed in one day?”
The answer was, “Yes.”
None of what my husband and I accumulated or worked for, was in God’s plan for my life. Nothing. It is all gone!
It was all done to bless others with.
So what to do? I knew in that moment I had been governing every step of my life, instead of letting God. I knew, things were about to change.
All I could tell God was, “Be my truth and my light./Lord, all I can do is trust in You.”
So what happened?
My husband got a raise at work, which we did not even know was going to happen. God brought a buyer for our home and land, almost immediately. We actually became debt free from everything. We owe nobody, nothing, with plenty left over.
As spring came, a bird nestled her eggs/young on the carport. I sat and watched those birds hatch, grow, and fly away. I begin to realize, life continues on, no matter what.
I watched the many, many trees and pasture spring to life. I saw the horses begin to get muscle strong again.
As I contemplated all of this, I knew my “wilderness days” were over.
I entered into the Promise Land of crucifying my flesh, and living for God’s will. I was no different from Abraham, Joseph, Moses, David, Mary, Jesus, or any others who had to sacrifice it all for God.
They all lost everything, had to move, only to be restored to life again. That is exactly what God did with me. One moment I had nothing, the next moment I had everything.
We all need to take the time and look around at our lives and all we have. At the end of the day, it all means nothing, and can be gone in a blink of an eye.
What will remain is God’s love and plan for our lives. If we stay true to Him, He will stay true to us.
There were moments I cried, moments I was mad, and moments I loved. At the end of every single day these words were always on my lips, “Lord I thank You for this day.”
I am telling you all something right now. My Father had a stroke and in one day my life changed. It changed forever.
Everything was gone, which meant so much to me.
When one turns and there is nothing left, there is Jesus, standing there.
Don’t let your wants and desires, become a wilderness of going round and round the same mountain for 40 years. We must always crucify our flesh daily. Always stay in the moment you are in with God.
Let God’s plan for your life, be the upmost desire of your heart. Love, give, sacrifice, and I promise you, God will do amazing things for those who do.
The most amazing for me was, He brought me so close to Himself. I know what it is truly like to trust Him for everything and have Him bring it all forth. That is the greatest Promise Land any of us can have.
The world and all that is in it, does not mean a whole lot to me anymore.
God Bless, SR